Fender Bender

"Do you ever feel like this is too good to be true?" You ask from the passenger seat of my car.

"Yes, all of the time." And I mean it with all of my heart. This is the most real thing I've felt in my entire life.

So I'll close my eyes and you take hold of the wheel.
Tell me when to press on the gas and tell me when to break.
It'll be okay; I trust you.

I trust you I trust you I trust you
(Even though I can't see you. Even though I have no idea what may happen next.)
I trust you I trust you I trust you I TRUST YOU...

CRASH.

Today.

On days like today, my Dad always tells me to make a list of ten things I am thankful for. He says it will make me feel better. So. Here it goes:

1. How when I feel all mixed up and slightly insane and like I'm only pretending to be an actual person, all it takes is a quick phone call to Janie to make me feel real again.

2. Those few people that can read me and know how I'm doing without me even saying a word.

3. This gorgeous weather outside and that talented kid at this park playing some of the most raw, beautiful music with his guitar.

4. My date with Kim to watch The Office later

5. Saddness and tears. They have made me appreciate happiness and smiling and laughing so much more. I am so very blessed.

6. My new grey sweater

7. An excuse to skip my classes this morning

8. SPRING BREAK. Which officially started for me today at 12:05

9. My sister. I love that she went out of her way to make me feel special on my bad day on Monday. I love her.

10. Above all, my God that lavished his love upon me and thinks that I am lovely and special, and that I have infinite intrinsic value.